I relapsed. The very first time this year. I turned into a monster again just from the actions of yours. I saw how I grew instead of stronger, I became weaker. I knew I had to find away out and that again is history repeating itself.
Excuses saying I didn't know what I was doing but I knew. All along I knew that I was once again channeling all positivity into negativity but that didn't push me on. I burned out. Quicker and faster than I ever thought would happened.
Maybe the stem of pressure wasn't gotten rid off. Maybe it resided in my brain all these while. Maybe my own thoughts too became the added pressure that was urging to compress me till I combust.
i dunno what happened in your life to make u feel this way. And i dunnno whether is there anything i can say to cheer u up but as a person with very bad depression and anxiety, i know how u feel.
ReplyDeleteIf u just need someone to talk to or just to listen, i'll help.
btw, i dunno if this will at least make u smile or laugh a little.
DeleteA drunkard was brought to court.
just before the trail, there was a commotion in the gallery.
the judge pounded the gavel on his table and shouted, "Order, order."
The drunkard immediately responded, "Thank you, your honour, I'll have a scotch and soda."