No matter how hard she tried, she couldn't let you off from her mind. She tried, but to not avail. There's not a single day hat gone past with her not thinking about you. You took up most of her mind and heart such that there was none left for anything else. She missed you but she couldn't say it out for fear of weird stares given by her surrounding people.
She's hurting on the inside but she wouldn't want to admit it. It's destroying her trying to act normal trying not to let her real emotions show. No one bothered to ask if she's okay and trying to find out the truth behind a wall of lies. A pillar of support that she wanted might not be present anytime soon. Trying to wait for its arrival yet the fear of not being able to wait any longer sends her over the edge.
They say that family would be there for you no matter what happens. Were they there for her when she needed them the most? No. How could she rely on someone that was not there for more than half of her current life? She can't find the need to trust them not knowing if they would be gone again. Maybe they would say that she's stubborn for not wanting to rely on them and would only do her way but could she be blamed when all her family does is to put her down when she needs to be put up with.
All she really wonders is that will there be anyone to realize that she's gone when only her empty shell is left behind? To her, family is nothing but a name for people who is supposedly to care for her. Will her definition of family change over the time or would it stay the same? No one would know unless she tells them herself. Would they be told of what's going on in her mind day in day out or still be oblivious to every single thing about her? It's still a mystery unknown till the very day she opens up.
