Wednesday, 30 March 2016

Shermaine

I'm burning out, I'm getting mentally weaker day by day. Isn't it fun for you to see me neck deep in a barrel filled with pressure? I hope it is. Maybe you don't and let me tell you how I'm drowning in my thoughts. 

I relapsed. The very first time this year. I turned into a monster again just from the actions of yours. I saw how I grew instead of stronger, I became weaker. I knew I had to find away out and that again is history repeating itself. 

Excuses saying I didn't know what I was doing but I knew. All along I knew that I was once again channeling all positivity into negativity but that didn't push me on. I burned out. Quicker and faster than I ever thought would happened. 

Maybe the stem of pressure wasn't gotten rid off. Maybe it resided in my brain all these while. Maybe my own thoughts too became the added pressure that was urging to compress me till I combust.