People say time heals what you are going true, I tried to believe that but for a month I kept wondering if it's true. My temptation keeps getting stronger day by day. I started to believe what they say was false.
One day exactly a month of being clean, I couldn't stay strong anymore. I went back to my usual path, the blade sliding across my wrist. It hurts, the blood kept flowing out but nothing feels like the pain I was feeling in my heart.
After that slit, I cried my heart out. I regretted it so much for it not only hurt me, it hurts every one around me. I thought I could be free from this struggle forever but I couldn't.
I hope that I would really be okay. To all my friends thanks for helping me, I promise that I will stay strong for you guys. Thanks for being there for me so that I could rely on you. I won't disappoint you guys anymore.
To W, I'm really sorry I broke this promise.
You can scold, you can ignore me for all you like but please forgive and I won't do this again. When you read this, I'm most probably crying and really unhappy because of what happened just now. I really don't want anything to happen to us. I'm really trying hard now to seek help so please wait and we will see the results together.
I love you all be it my friend or enemy, I won't hate you because it's too tiring to hate. G'bye
