No longer feeling affection for someone you once love
It seems like I used to love you and worship on the floor you walked in but now? As I grew older and saw more of the world, I saw how perhaps you were wrong at times. You couldn't see how much I was hurting because of every single of your actions. No, I didn't dare to tell you how worthless to me now.
I fear you. I fear all the things you can do and threaten me with right now for I am weaker without people who used to love me. All of them? No, just one special group dear to my heart. I love them all and I still do. But I didn't dare to contact anyone of them when we started drifting apart because of you.
Don't ruin my happiness with all your suspicions. It's always you accusing me of things that never happens. What about you? Whenever I accused you, you go batshit crazy? How is it that I'm still sane after associating with you for this Long? I'm amazed.
Maybe after all, I just want to be normal and normality wouldn't come till your suspicions dissolve into nothing. Where I can freely associate myself with anyone I want to without having to lose contact with them. I miss all of you so much. I promise I'll be back. Not soon but maybe sooner than we think.
