Sorry

You said that you were sorry but
You had no idea how much she hates that word
They say it without sincerity, so fake
All she wants is to have someone to not hurt her

She won't have to go through the pain of
having someone saying sorry to her
after having put her through unbearable
conditions that she couldn't withstand

How she wishes that everyone would stop
saying sorry but she can't stop them
and it tears her heart every single one of that
word is heard as it reminds her of her past

Letter to you

You know who you are,

This piece here? It's dedicated fully to you. I hope you do know how tiring it is to be in my shoes. I hope you have a good time without me caring about you anymore.

I don't know if I'm myself anymore. I'm slowly giving up on who I am just to please you. I'm putting up facades more and more often only for myself to break into more and more pieces behind the scenes. I'm always disappointed in you and constantly seeking comfort from my friends just because of what you did. No, I didn't ask for you to be next to me and neither did I ask for you to be my horror story. I don't want to be here anymore every single time you look at me. Your eyes filled with hatred and all. I give up, happy? Just do whatever you want with me because I can't bother about myself anymore. All I get are looks of hatred from you while others? Your attitude changes a hundred and eighty degrees. Yea everything's fine with that. I'm done with being who you want me to be because I'm never gonna please you like others do. Thanks to you, I'm never gonna be the girl that you loved. I'm done. I give up.

Your nemesis,

Shermaine