I'm sorry

A cut across my wrist, deep and wide. I started crying profusely, wondering why am I doing it again. I wanted to stop but the need of something really sharp sliding across my wrist is getting stronger.

People say time heals what you are going true, I tried to believe that but for a month I kept wondering if it's true. My temptation keeps getting stronger day by day. I started to believe what they say was false. 

One day exactly a month of being clean, I couldn't stay strong anymore. I went back to my usual path, the blade sliding across my wrist. It hurts, the blood kept flowing out but nothing feels like the pain I was feeling in my heart. 

After that slit, I cried my heart out. I regretted it so much for it not only hurt me, it hurts every one around me. I thought I could be free from this struggle forever but I couldn't. 

I hope that I would really be okay. To all my friends thanks for helping me, I promise that I will stay strong for you guys. Thanks for being there for me so that I could rely on you. I won't disappoint you guys anymore. 

To W, I'm really sorry I broke this promise.

You can scold, you can ignore me for all you like but please forgive and I won't do this again. When you read this, I'm most probably crying and really unhappy because of what happened just now. I really don't want anything to happen to us. I'm really trying hard now to seek help so please wait and we will see the results together. 

I love you all be it my friend or enemy, I won't hate you because it's too tiring to hate. G'bye

Definition(s) of Love

They ask what is love? Why do you love someone so much? 

I don't have a definite answer for this but I do know what my definition of love is.

• To me love is where you look at your mom and think: wow! No one is as beautiful as her!

•  It's where you look at your family, though you feel it isn't that close but you want to make it whole again.

•  It's where you look at your dad and you will be like: next time when I have a boyfriend, I want him to be like daddy!(for girls only)

•  It's where you think your life is perfect and you enjoy every single thing.

•  It's where you think your dad is the most handsome guy on earth and no one is as handsome as him.

•  It's where you forgive that person no matter how wrong that person can be. You will forgive and forget that wrong thing he or she has done.

•  It's where you want to spend your whole life with that person be it your mom, dad or your other half.

Thanks for reading my post on my definition of love! G'night