Past and present

They say it's okay to have a past

Yet they judge all my scars 

The feelings can never pass

As long as they judge my past.

This short poem was written when some jerk started to judge me. I wonder why they judge me till I see an exact same replica of me in class. I then understand what they felt when they saw me, those thoughts are horrible but they reflected me. I guess that I can never be happy again till I'm in a place where I feel happy and where nobody judges me. 

Thanks for reading my post! Goodbye

Thoughts

Sometimes I wonder what's wrong with me. I spent all my time thinking about suicide and all the negative stuff that I'm not allowed to think about. This thoughts made me happy and smile, I thought. Little did I know that they were killing me inside and left me craving for more.

When my family found out about it, they too were affected by it. Seeing this made me feel guilty but the thoughts didn't seem to stop.

The only person that did a thing was my cousin. She took down the depressing quotes on my bedroom's wall and pasted one which she wrote. This quote 'I have a great life and I treasure it', made me cry. I was moved by what she did. She made me realized that I must change my thoughts. I tried to change my thinking from then on.

Thanks cousin, without what you did, I might've been nothing. Maybe still dwelling on those thoughts but you made the first move. Thank you.